When I feel pregnant with my first child when I was 18 I went from being a healthy size 8/10 to a size 18 after I had given birth - I gained 5 and a half stone over those 9 months and whilst I admit I do not watch every mouthful when pregnant, I was still shocked at how quickly it had happened. Ryan had weighed 8lb 8ozs and so I couldn't say it was all baby!
It took me a few years to pluck up the courage to look at myself properly and lose that weight but I did and returned to a bigger but happier 9 and a half stone and a size 10.
I gained another 5 and a half stone with my next pregnancy - chocolate and curry cravings saw to that but again I lost the weight, and so when I had my 3rd child I started a 'fat club' (our name for our weekly meeting). I remember sitting there on the day I had been given the ok following my 6 week check-up - Baby noisily breastfeed whilst I listened to what I had to do to lose what seemed to me like half a person extra I had gained!!
That time it took just 9 months to lose 4 and a half stone - I was so pleased with myself!
Then I turned 30 - arrrgghhh! I started gaining weight for what seemed like no reason. I had been a vegetarian for years prior to this and recently started eating meat again. I asked the doctor if that would cause it, he smirked, NO! So since then I have steadily gained weight and with my recent pregnancy with Tala I am now 5 and a half stone heavier than I was when I got married 5 years ago and on Monday I weighed 16 stone 4 lbs.
It hurts me to write that like you couldn't imagine. I feel sluggish, fat (yes I used the F word!) and unhappy.
So today I start a new diet with the help of a trial from a company called Slimavite. I have not used a meal replacement product before so I am in new territory but I need help to shift this body blubber.